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Wow, it's been three months since I've written and I just read the last thing I wrote for fun. and.. I WAS SO NERDY! Well.. not nerdy. But so influenced by marks and exams and everything. And I think about this heaps but, I sounded so YOUNG. So excited.. so happy. Well to clarify time, it end of term 1 right now. Not really physically tired, cause I have enough sleep and everything. Just very exhausted in mind. And what for? But maybe I really did need to study more. This year feel so much harder. Just heaps of exams (WHICH DON'T COUNT FOR ANYTHING!) and homework. The teachers are heaps stricter too, feels like they're trying to be hard on us to make us grow up faster. But I still feel the same! All of a sudden, we have all these expectations and everything, and it isn't exactly cruising anymore. Has all this work paid off anyways? Really bombed out in maths though. Self discipline is a problem (: Eurgh. Last two maths results were a shocker. Consumer arithmetic is the only maths topic that is really needed in life and I suck at it. And it's kinda depressing sitting next to Bec and Xtine. Xtine got 100... Bec got 96.. and then there's me. Everything else is ok kinda. But do I really need all this effort to get CLOSE to full marks? Feels like what I took for granted last year is what I have to work hard for. Cruising time is over? =S Honestly. |
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