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Ahem. Here comes the crazy yo-yo bipolar violin rant again. So I think in my last violin entry, I thought I did ok? Well that's how I've been feeling the past week anyways. I was pretty damn confident for my violin concert. And here's how it went. Anyways, I was pretty nervous. The sinking, swirling type feeling in my stomach started when Michelle before me started playing and got worse as she finished. And the crazy heart beating. And the clammy cold fingers. Then it was my turn! =) And guess what? I went pretty good. I got probably 99.9% of the notes, I rushed only a little bit, I nailed most of the hard bits and all in all, quite a satisfactory performance. All with my legs feeling like jelly :L So I was pretty satisfied with that. The nervous feeling was replaced with a smug type feeling and .. it hit disaster point when I got up for Beethoven. Beethoven was a disaster. Utterly. I think I should be very worried instead of happy that I don't feel nervous. Of the two, Beethoven is definitely easier to play. But all the notes came out wrong and it sounded so amateur! Not to mention the mistakes I made. I'd say a grand total of 6 or so? -sigh- AND THEN, In conclusion. Don't you ever get annoyed, when you CAN do something; you've tried and practised so hard at home. Then when you go show it off to someone, you can't do it. And they're skeptical and unimpressed and all that time and dedication you put into it got wasted. So I guess my summary for this week is, |
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