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I am... bitter. And emotionless. I've hit rock bottom. People like to say that I'm stable, emotionally controlled, mature and thoughtful. They like to ask me for advice about life, because I seem like someone who knows all the answers. The truth is, I'm an ancient rock, a lonely lighthouse constantly battered by sea. I live a life abused by a hurricane storm, sometimes subsiding but never ceasing - day after day of bitter punishment and demolition. So of course I'm stable, just like the rock platform is stable. I'm emotionally controlled, because there are no more emotions left to control. I am mature; how else would you survive the pulverising storm? And thoughtful; because when you can't feel anymore, you think. Because to keep yourself teetered onto the edge of sanity, you need to think and find a reason to live. Because without rational thought, we are nothing about insane, pitiful animals howling in the darkness at the cruelty of life. I thought I was building myself up again, dumping dirt layers upon dirt layers, stomping them flat, smoothing them out, starting the process again. I thought I had rebuilt at least a sliver of the former majestic rock. I give up. I am not teenage angst-ing, or being moody or sullen. |
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